Fame

Stand Alone
Spot light
Start to sweat
all eyes watch
feeling regret

Emotional Moment

nothing is gained
one shot
there is no fame
light turns to darkness
watched eyes turned closed
the room empties
everyone goes home
Stand Alone
upon a stage
take a deep breath
no regrets

Emotional Moment

everything gained
there is no fame
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Stand Alone
bright white room
the woman screams

Emotional Moment

once a mistake
now a world is gained
eyes are open
ready for fame
darkness turns to light
stage closes in
fists become tight
take a deep breath
no need to fight
no need to Stand Alone

Slow Death

The clouds darken

and lower to the ground

The fog sets in

as the wind howls

ready to venture into the unknown

Step Off

to a deathly glow

follow from a far

Darkness provides cover

moving through the trees

the bushes rustle

Rain falls from the sky

lightning and thunder give me a high

this is when bullets fly

Crackle and hiss above my head

Part of me is already dead

A Empty Room, A Full Mind

I sit in my room one last time
It feels so empty with nothing inside
I'm about to start the next page of life
My childhood is now over and gone
My mind flips back the pages
Turns back time
From one memory to the next
They all connect
They tell a tale of a precious life
Looking at old photos, they seem like yesterday
How small and fragile I once was
You can now start to truly see that family is forever
but friends can come and go
What lies in store for me
only God knows
Work through your demons
and find your inner soul
Its key to never forget
Who helped you get to where you're at
They helped you become who you are
Recognized this and you will go far

Foolish

Make like a tree and leave

You come and go as you please

There is two sides to you

You pass me by like a breeze

Then comeback like a gust of wind

Now I’m the center of your attention

But it won’t last long

You have no clue where you belong

But I guess that’s karma

The theory of the Dalai Lama

I should look at the relationships I’m destroying

Rather than concentrate on the ones I’m building

I am only one man

But there is people who need me

Waiting for my help, sitting there bleeding

I need to give them something to believe in

I’m supposed to be a role model

But where have I been?

Forgive me Lord for I have sinned

It’s time to turn back the pages and go to square one

You were never there for me

I had it all wrong

It was all about you all along

What about me?

I’m glad I opened my eyes to look and see

I realize now who I want to be

With you I was just a shadow of myself

There is plenty of fish in the sea

I have to switch gears

And take a look at the family tree

Drop the axe and catch the falling leaves

Soon I will be gone

Walking down the path of life

But the fork in the road cuts me in half like a knife

Which way do I turn?

Each path is a lesson I need to learn

But all I care about now is to get away from here

Leave the rules behind

I’ll be fine on my own

Get away from this broken home

There are people worse off

But I still deserve better

When you can’t even forecast the daily weather

One day tornadoes are spinning

The next

The sun is out and the birds are singing

It’s the same shit

Different day

Different week

Break this routine and climb the highest peak

Reach the top and look down at the world below

The city glows

From the radiant light

In the middle of the night

I jump off the edge

No ground beneath my feet

As I free fall into the street

This is a feeling I get

I have my regrets

But it took two to create this mess

You just want to sweep it under the rug

You couldn’t care less

You took your shots

But I’m wearing a bullet proof vest

One day I will be gone

Away from here

You will see something has disappeared

But I can’t leave yet

It would be selfish of me to forget

I have to make some more time

And not make him wait

Before he thinks I was never there

Then it will be too late

I am foolish for the risks I have taken

I am young enough for the mistakes I am making

From front to side to side but never back

Only a true fool will do that

Greed

Money, Money, Money

That’s all people want

Meanwhile I’m sittin’ here nearly bankrupt

I can barely pay my bills

I’m barely scraping by

But society doesn’t care

As long as they get their share

Because it’s all about money

And isn’t kind of funny

How greedy some are

While others our hungry

We watch them suffer

As the weak get weaker and strong get tougher

Here Bill, have another million dollars

While little Phil has to walk a mile for fresh water

But for just a dollar a day … Fuck the commercials

What can I say

Because money is everything in our world today

You get judged by the amount in your account

All you are is another figure

See if your math teacher can figure that equation out

Scratch your head and wonder and awe

We haven’t made it all that far

You are not you with no money in the bank

… one of us had to be a little bit frank 

5 Months

In the middle of the night I sit in my chair

Talking to you without any care

I got school in the morning and there is work to be done

But talking to you I’m having too much fun

It’s hard to focus on the work I should do

When someone has dazzling beauty like you

The distance between us makes me blue

I feel like an animal caged in the zoo

When all I want to do is be there with you

5 months to go

That’s all there is

Till I see your pretty face

It will be the first time we met

But I’m willing to bet

What we will experience we will never forget

So much can change from now till then

Lets hope it works out for the better in the end

Your the girl from me

That is easy to see

But for now your here and I’m there

And it all seems a little unfair

But if it is meant to be

It will be

And we can only just wait and see

Even though sitting back and waiting is not me

It’s all I can do

And be true to you

5 months to go

That’s all there is

They

They say I'm funny
They say I'm smart
They think they know me
But they really do not

Those who are closest say I don't show emotion
They can't tell if I'm mad or if I'm sad
They can only see that there is something on my mind
They are looking for something they can not find
But I'm not supposed to show emotion
For I am a man

They say my life is tragic
After all I've been through and still only a teen
I've yet to attend a wedding
But funerals I've seen plenty
When I lost a parent
I could not speak
It was only tears that I leaked
My brother was another
It was all too quick
Young enough to wear a bib
He died in his crib
I'll never forget how hard my father squeezed as they laid his son to rest
I could not cry
I could not speak
I just stood there and stared
For the answers that I seeked
The lowest of the low
But it got better
How could it not?

They assume my life is sad
But it hasn't been that bad
I've been given a lot and I've worked for what I got

What they say isn't entirely true
To learn the facts you must ignore the fool